A man who was not so young anymore walked through the woods, lost in
thought. It was a heavy day and he preferred to observe it alone... for
being surrounded by people who didn't understand was the only thing
worse than loneliness. His feet carried him absentmindedly around each turn and his mind wrestled, as it always had, with one question. "Why."
After a while he awoke from his walking-dream and realized he was now
standing still. Something pulled his eyes upward and there, standing on
top of a hill and against the shining sun was a man. The man. His man.
Squinting against the light, unable yet to make out the man's face, his
heart jumped to his throat; adrenaline shot to his veins. He didn't
need to see his face: he knew who it was by his silhouette. The
man on the hill was American. He was Japanese. German. Korean.
Vietnamese. Italian. French. British. He was white and yellow and black
and brown. He seemed to stand proudly, firmly planted, arms on his hips.
To his body clung an untold number of packs and straps and gear and
supplies that made him look as if he weighed 250 pounds. In the
mind of our man, this figure was perpetually twenty years older than
he, and it was therefore like a punch to the gut to see instead after
all these years how truly young he actually was. And yet, the
man on the hill radiated a certain wisdom and confidence that our man
had still never managed to obtain. This was the man who had
shown ours the ropes. He had taught him how to walk. How to think. How
to scrounge. How to improvise. How to listen. How to set up an ambush.
How to kill. And on one particularly terrible night that still haunted
our man's nightmares... he had taught them all how to die. From
this man on the hill had come venom and anger and rage and unfathomable
tenderness. He was often the last to sleep, the last to eat, the first
to cross. He was at once both a mother hen and a vicious badger.
Our man caught his breath and wanted to call out to the one on the hill
-- but something stopped him... and in squinting tighter he realized
what it was. The man on the hill was wearing one thing that our man, in
all their time together, had never seen him wear before: it was the most
peaceful and happy smile you've ever seen. Our man
wiped his eyes, and the man on the hill was gone. He exhaled... He
relaxed back and deep into his civilian shoes. From that smile our man
won his liberation. He straightened up his old bones, feeling younger
himself. And he said aloud: "This walk was beautiful. But I think I'm ready to go home now." |
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